Charlie bit my finga!
Lauren fell asleep during the chargers game (surprise surprise) and was cradling her poor finga! so funny! That was a ridiculous night. I've never heard so much terror in luke's voice cuz of his wife's cut finger! haha. it was a little worse than that but a pretty good story..
Back to school!! woo nursing... :) almost done. crazy!
Listening to Christmas music and its so jolly!
wisdom
Mark 8:35- "whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it."
wow. well that puts a twist on things.
Sometimes I stop a think (rarely) and realize that I am not using the most valuable source for wisdom when it is already inside my heart. So easy to tap into... This aint no wikipedia source, it is divine. Sometimes I allow the silly, dim part of my brain to wander: well the next boyfriend will give me what my heart needs to become whole again. Then I think about how I will EVER get to the 'boyfriend' part and a lightbulb shines: hollllddd up... How would a human make my heart beat again when I don't have a strong foundation of Christ in myself. "He is truly wise who looks upon all earthy things as folly that he may gain in Christ." Sometimes I wonder when all of these epiphanies will begin to shape me.
I try to achieve the best. Best education, best looks, rep, guy, spirituality... and its depressing yet heart swelling that it is NOT all about attainment. But about seeking a crown by embracing understanding and becoming humble, self aware, submissive to God's will, and becoming like Him. When I hear "become like Him" for some reason the first thought that comes into my over-excitable brain is why would I want to be passive like Jesus was. HAHA. Like the whole humble, submissive guy. But I decided to stop and think (i'm working on it) and a wave of embarrassment heated my body as if God was pissed that I would ever think of Him like that. But I think alot of people think that way. Pressure to be powerful, strong and independent hits me everyday, when we are supposed to be submissive to him and our character will be shaped... Dependent on Him to live life for eternity.. Anyways, I think my brain is tired and thinking too much...I know that God is ominously almighty and that His wisdom is the best and actually do-able..
Its a constant battle.
newbie
This is my firsties post. I love being home for thanksgiving. I had forgotten what it was like to relax. The evocative scents of home bring positive and negative aspects, but the free for all food is greatly appreciated. On Sunday I will return to living with hardly any food, time, or room in my bed. sigh.. but today made me excited to be a nurse!! :) yayyy
Lauren fell asleep during the chargers game (surprise surprise) and was cradling her poor finga! so funny! That was a ridiculous night. I've never heard so much terror in luke's voice cuz of his wife's cut finger! haha. it was a little worse than that but a pretty good story..
